Wretched Reality

I look, but I cannot see.

I listen, but I cannot hear.

I live each day- dying as I go...

in this black and white world,

I drift about in the grey area

where chaos and confusion reign supreme,

under the oblivious eyes of an apathetic god.

I've enclosed my heart in a miniature coffin,

and with it- the ability to love...

For to share such an intimate closeness

is to court disaster, and obscure my view

of this wretched reality.

There are no more pieces of my heart

left for him to break- nor enough left for me to care.

And so I pass through this miserable existence

with a huge, devilish grin- unseen, and unheard,

and ultimately... unloved.

I have found my bittersweet happiness

in the shadow of despair.....

Life is beautiful.